Katzbachstrasse Sessions

Through July and August of this year I stayed in an apartment in the Kreuzberg area of Berlin - my first time there.  It was a musician's flat so she had a piano and vintage organ.  This apartment came up out of the blue, during a period where I was struggling to find anywhere suitable and staying in hotels, along with another apartment with piano.  This one was cheaper! 

I had a go at recording a version of "Balcarres Street" on piano and then "Wood For The Trees" sprung to mind as a song that might work solo on the organ (since the E keys didn't work that song is in a key which doesn't require any E notes!).  Just for fun.  I would do these differently if I had more time to work out arrangements.

 

The Story of Budapest 2014

For a long time during 2013 we felt Budapest was the most likely place for our new studio phase.  It wasn't so much that we wanted to go there but at that time it was the only place we could go.  Apartments in Budapest are much bigger and cheaper than everywhere else in Europe.  So we booked a flight for October.

Once we arrived in Edinburgh it became clear we were not going to have everything organised in time so we postponed.  A strong feeling for Berlin then emerged.  There was really only one apartment suitable there but we never took it since the landlord could only guarantee it to us for 6 months.  (In hindsight, that would have lined up with Kate's death and when I had to leave our Budapest apartment anyway).



At the time we felt we couldn't risk having to move all our stuff from Edinburgh to Berlin and then another move 6 months later.  This is something we would have been prepared to risk but we were considering how it would affect everyone involved.  It wasn't long after we'd let this one go that a landlord from Budapest we'd previously contacted a month or so earlier got in touch.  Her lack of concern about noise issues (which other landlords were sometimes wary of) and her general enthusiasm encouraged us that this was the right apartment.  There were a few other signs that seemed to indicate this was the one.  We signed up before Christmas 2013 and booked a new flight for Budapest in January 2014.

Everything seemed fine but a week before we were due to leave I saw a picture of her on Facebook and it sent a shudder right through my body.  I'd seen what she looked like before but this time a strange unpleasant feeling flashed right through me - like a warning.  It happened so quickly but was very strong.  It actually made me consider "should we abandon this apartment and landlord?".  I seriously thought about dropping everything but again, what stopped me was concerning myself with those involved.  They would lose out financially in quite a big way and I knew they wouldn't understand my decision to abandon it all based on just this feeling.  This would come back to haunt me a few months later.



Once we got to Edinburgh airport everything went very smoothly in getting to Budapest.  When we met our landlord she seemed friendly and yet there was something about her that bothered me.  We arrived on Sunday night and our first rent payment was due by the end of Monday.  When she hadn't received it by Monday morning (we were just about to make it) she wrote a snappy email.  She then came round to the apartment again on Tuesday, apologised for the tone in her email, and started asking questions about Kate's condition and suggested a doctor friend of hers.  It was a little uncomfortable for my dad and I who were present and felt she was putting Kate on the spot but we said nothing and were both impressed with the calm, straightforward way Kate responded.  The landlord was confused at Kate's refusal to see a doctor but didn't say anymore.

A week later, after my dad had left, she came around again and this time we sat down at the kitchen table for a chat.  She spoke briefly about spiritual stuff - asking if we meditate or do yoga.  I don't know how she knew we were in any way spiritual because we never spoke about anything prior to this.  Then out of the blue she asked me "what is the purpose of your Music?".  I was surprised by this question because in all of the places we had stayed no-one else had ever asked about the Music.  This question brought a direct answer out of me: "To show people the truth of what they are".  Her body language immediately got defensive on this response and she snapped back at me: "But how do you know what is the truth for others?  Everyone has their own path and truth".  I replied "Yes, but what I am is also the same in you".  She relaxed on hearing this and nodded, saying "Ok, I understand now, I get you".  I then went on to explain we never force this on anyone, that we are simply putting this Music out there for those who it is to reach.



The only reason those words came out of me was because she provoked them by asking such a question.  We never spoke a word about what we were doing to others who had never asked.  I have the feeling now that initial encounter unsettled something in her because after this she began behaving strangely.  At the end of that chat she showed enthusiasm for coming round regularly, like she somehow wanted to be part of what we were doing.  She wanted to see the studio and was impressed with it.  Yet each time she came round there was a restless energy to her that irritated us.  Then she became unreliable - contacting us to say she wanted to visit and then cancelling at the last minute.  We thought we had found an ally at last, probably too readily because we were struggling and some desperation had crept in, before it eventually became clear to us that she was not with us.

She was attracted to the energy and commented one day "its so Zen in here!", so she clearly felt some kind of peace and yet it unsettled her at the same time.  I sensed she was wary of me because I could see right through her.  There was a strong defensive energy I always sensed coming off her and we weren't giving her the reactions she was used to on certain matters.  She was 'spiritual' in the sense she did yoga, meditated, etc... but this was the issue - she had created an identity for herself out of being spiritual.  She could impress others with this but it didn't impress me.  Instead, her dark side had nowhere to hide in my presence and so it started to take her over.   The only song we managed to complete and release during our time in Budapest was this...



By the time Kate's parents were about to come over we were sick and tired of her.  There was an incredibly dark, dense atmosphere in the apartment in those final months.  We said it all along but nobody would take us seriously - there are dark forces that want to stop this Music because this Music is part of exposing that very darkness.  We had no help, people thought we were crazy to speak such things.  In those final weeks and days before Kate went into hospital, we were singing songs - SoulJahm and Bob Marley - and chanting "Jah Rastafari!" in an attempt to drive out whatever negativity was in there.



Its worth mentioning at this point that Kate had felt to have Skype sessions with an energy worker in America shortly before we left for Budapest.  She told Kate that we had both been trying to communicate this Truth on our own over various lifetimes and that we'd always been either tortured or killed for it and this was showing up in Kate's body in this life - hence the symptoms.  Remember, a 'brain tumour' is just a concept like any other.  Just because we have a name for it does not mean we understand why and how these things develop.  She said this time we had agreed to come as a team to deliver it through this Music.  She told Kate she could see dark entities around certain chakras, some of which she removed, and also spoke of how Kate's life force chakra (which ties you to Planet Earth) was low and that she had to somehow try and root herself here again.  

There was one night during the period Kate was in hospital when I was sitting alone in the apartment having my tea when I happened to notice the star shaped light on the wall.  It was a pentagram, a five pointed star, and it was upside down.  I thought that was a bit odd and so looked it up on the internet as I had remembered seeing somewhere before that an inverted pentagram represents darkness and evil.  For a moment again a shudder passed right through me.  In an earlier email exchange our landlord had made the ominous comment to us "stay away from black magic", intimating she had some experience of it.



Also during this time, after Kate had passed away, the landlord wanted to meet me.  We agreed to meet at the apartment and then she cancelled at the last minute again.  She then re-arranged the meeting at a cafe a few days later.  The name of the cafe was called Katapult.  I woke up that morning and something inside told me not to go so I cancelled.  She then sent me an email later that day blaming me for Kate's death and threatening to call her police friend and have me charged with manslaughter.  Its not for nothing that our landlord's name was Bogi.

She also kept our deposit to cover the expense of a few items of furniture she had offered to get in for us before we arrived in Budapest.  These would still have been useful for future tenants.  These kind of people are psychic vampires - they are somehow attracted to this energy initially but when they begin to realise that same energy exposes their dark side they react viciously.

By the time my dad came to stay in the apartment, coming over for Kate's cremation, the atmosphere was really dark.  Both of us would get up in the morning and just wanted to get out of there as soon as possible.  We'd go for several walks each day just to get some breathing space.  In the midst of all this we had to pack up all the studio gear and find somewhere to put it.  Eventually, we had to leave and book another apartment for a couple of days before leaving Budapest as it was unbearable and not worth staying in any longer just to save money.



With the call now to go to Berlin, despite the circumstances not being in my favour, I was going to honour that inner voice no matter what.  At the beginning of June 2014 I caught the night train from Budapest to Berlin with my guitar, laptop and a case to begin a new adventure.

Control - David Icke, The People's Voice & SoulJahm

Soon after the idea came to us in Spring 2013 for a studio set-up we noticed a parallel with David Icke and his journey.  About a week after our idea came he announced his plans for The People's Voice.  He was looking at ways he could take what he was doing and expand it, give it a louder voice.  This was also our intention with the studio.  Our paths seemed to move in a similar direction from that moment on.  By the autumn when he was acquiring equipment and putting together their tv studios we were acquiring equipment in Edinburgh.

The other side of that coin is that around about the same time his thing began falling apart early this year so did ours.  A woman who had initially helped and supported him in setting up his channel turned against him.  We had a similar experience with our psycho of a landlord in Budapest.  Then by April/May, during the Cardinal Grand Cross in astrology, he parted ways with people who'd been on the journey with him for years, which seemed to mirror what I was experiencing.

In the interview above, David talks about how so many people use spirituality as an escapism.  This is something I have encountered again and again on this journey.  I don't know if this is what happens in Icke's case but every single time I have encountered resistance, disagreements and fall-outs on this journey with anyone it is always down to the same thing...  People don't LISTEN to what is ACTUALLY being said as its being said.

It's like all along you are holding this thing - Truth/Music/Reality - up to them saying "Look here it is!" but instead of looking directly at it they are distracted by whatever else is going on around them.  The sheer openness and transparency of it is what seems to blind them to it.  We live in a world of such complexity where to get on in life, to be successful, you have to have something up your sleeve.  You need to have some sort of advantage over others and one of the subtlest ways we have of doing this is being diplomatic.  This is what politicians and businessmen do.  They can never tell the truth, they have to hide their true feelings and manipulate to keep everyone on side.  It works very well in that sphere but it does not work with Reality.

So when people are confronted directly with this they bury their head in the sand, they don't want to see what is actually there but instead twist what is there to fit what they want to hear through their own ideas, interpretations and beliefs.  Its as if what is being said is too simple for them to accept as it is so they have to colour it somehow.  This usually results in a conflict somewhere down the line when it becomes apparent to them that the 'thing' they thought this was is not actually what it is!  Then they see you as the bad guy for their own failure to pay attention to what you were holding up  to them in the open, trying to show them all along! 
 
Control is a big part of it.  The people I have observed who are affected most by this are those who need to control everything around them.  They are used to having a considerable amount of control in their personal working or home situation and so when they come into contact with this Music energy for any length of time it is foreign to them and undermines the control they thought they had.  Since nobody is 'doing' this undermining - it is the nature of the energy itself - it is a background thing that these people may not be conscious of but will feel on a subtle level, perhaps as a discomfort or restlessness of some kind.  Then at some point some issue or event will bring it to the surface.  Usually lots of gentle attempts to steer them in the right direction prior to this will have been made but because they are in a kind of denial mode, not listening, it often ends up that the only way to wake them up and get them to pay attention - or at least move on - is to clobber them hard.  There is also nobody doing this hard-hitting, it is a response to the resistance and where there appears no other course of action will be effective in keeping the way clear and moving on.

This Music is like water and water will flow peacefully and easily when it meets no resistance but when it is required to it will move around or apply force to get past any obstacles in its path since its only interest is to flow, not to remain stagnant.  Movement is the very nature of Music.

Those with a real passion for Truth and this Music will stick around through all the rocky and bumpy periods.  It is during these times you see clearly people's motives and who is in it for real and who has been there for other reasons.  It is one of the reasons why so many individuals that come into this thing and are serious about it have to walk the journey alone - such as David Icke himself.  Friends are hard to come by because when the going gets tough most will walk out on you and take the easy road.

Journey Through Berlin 2014 - Part 1

While in Budapest during the first half of this year, numerous signs were presenting themselves to point to Berlin as the next destination.  Accompanying the inner voice telling me to come to Berlin were a solitary book on the bookshelf next to my bed in French entitled 'Mon enfant de Berlin' ('My Berlin Child'), a van which pulled up in front of the taxi I was in one day with "Berlingo" emblazoned on the back and a pair of underpants in a shop window on the street of the apartment in Budapest with 'Einfach Berlin' ('Simply Berlin') written on them.

Returning from the crematorium to the apartment in Budapest, I also knew I was to carry on this journey when the main SoulJahm theme song came on in the taxi - George Harrison's "Got My Mind Set On You".

A - Apartments-Maison Am Olivaer Platz
B - Hotel-Maison Adenauerplatz
C - Apartment, Käthe Niederkirchner Strasse
D - Hotel Les Nations
E - Novum Style Hotel Berlin Centrum
F - Hotel Comenius
G - Hotel Friedrichshain
H - Pension Reiter
I -  Hotel Atrium
J - Hostel City Bed am Kurfürstendamm
K - Hotel-Maison Am Olivaer Platz
L - Hotel-Pension Rheingold am Kurfürstendamm
M - Hotel Panorama am Adenauerplatz
N - Hotelpension Margrit
O - Apartment, Katzbachstrasse
P - Apartment, Sonntagstrasse 

Arriving in Berlin at the beginning of June, it was becoming pretty clear something was going on, as I was being led to stay very close to places Kate and I had previously stayed.  On our first Berlin stay in 2010, our first stop was Citadines apart-hotel near Olivaer Platz.  This time my first stop was a few streets away so I found myself walking through familiar territory.  The second hotel I stayed was still in this area before I got an apartment.  I booked the apartment in Prenzlauer Berg but did not realise till I arrived that it was just off the street Kate and I walked up and down with our groceries and laundry on our second Berlin visit during the winter of 2011/12.  Greifswalder Strasse was where Kate first began showing signs of difficulty walking.  My apartment this time turned out to be on a street just off this main road and directly opposite the bio supermarket we shopped at.

Käthe-niederkirchner Straße

Greifswalder Straße

After a month there and going through some sort of physical 'death process' I found myself going through another crazy hotel period lasting almost two weeks and staying in a new place nearly every night.  It was during this period I began noticing sunflowers everywhere in Berlin.  The most unusual was when I spotted a solitary sunflower in the corner of the dark corridor just outside my hotel room one day.

Katzbachstrasse

Finally an apartment showed up - in fact two on the same day - which had a piano.  I went for the cheaper apartment in Kreuzberg area, first time I'd stayed there.  It was on a street called Katzbachstrasse and the name on the doorbell was 'Helene', although this was not the owner's name.  Kate's middle name is Helen.  The month long stay in this apartment opened up a whole new dimension - The French Connection.

Sonntagstrasse

After this, I found myself back in familiar territory, building number 7 on Sonntagstrasse in the area of Friedrichshain now with brother Mark.  This apartment happened to be just around the corner from the "I love you 7UP" graffiti and I must have walked past here the day I came to take a photo of that graffiti a couple of months earlier.   I also took a photo of Bob Marley painted on a cafe shutter that day (see 'Definitely Berlin') and now Bob was there to greet us in this apartment.

Yesterday's Bar

Highest Excitement

We first encountered Bashar sometime in 2011, after we'd already been travelling Europe for many months.  Here in this video he explains how Kate and I were living:


Before we had heard the term "highest excitement" this is how we were naturally moving through this world.  The initial feeling to come to Europe would be an example of this.  It was the highest vibration for us at that time - that's why we always said we had no choice.  When the thing that excites you the most presents itself in front of you, what other choice do you have but to follow through?

So then Barcelona became the first location that attracted us most so we flew there.  There was no apartments we saw that "excited" us before our arrival so the next option was to book a hotel for the night.  After that first night we left the hotel with nowhere to stay and so walked for a bit.  Until we found ourselves standing across the road from a Citadines apart-hotel.  In that moment a thought came "how about we try there?" and that move was the "highest excitement" of that moment. 

Moment to moment this is how we carried on throughout Europe.  The places we went next, whether we stayed in our apartment or went out - it was all based on this principle naturally.  We documented this journey in our Spitting Out The Shit blog and this was the reason for that blog.  To show to others how this thing works so they might try it out in their own lives.  All the synchronicities we noted in that blog were not for nothing.  There is a reason synchronicites are profound.  They are signs you are on your natural path.  The path that is right for YOU.  It is Life's way of communicating with itself - through symbols.  The mind needs words and logic, the Heart responds to and understands symbols.  The powers-that-be know this all too well which is why they subliminally bombard us with them through advertising, politics, etc...

When you are awake to yourself you automatically notice and respond to the symbols right for your path.  They become a guide through this crazy, confused world.  We found the more we followed our highest excitement the more signs and synchronicities presented themselves, which made it easier to keep following that excitement and knowing which road to take next.

Just as Bashar says, it often means your path will not be a straight line but it will reveal more of you to yourself through all the twists and turns.  Isn't that the real reason for being here on Earth?  To find out who or what we are and put it into action?

Voice

This reality is NOTHING at all like we've been told it is.  They have all lied to us to keep us in suppression for centuries and we think we are clever and sophisticated but its a joke.


Its become all too clear to me recently that few have been listening or taking us seriously.  This SoulJahm thing is no joke and its about time this Voice was heard!



The first lie is that there is such a thing as death.  There is only LIFE!  All other errors we make come from this deception because the idea of death creates fear and fear is what they use to force us down certain tunnels like lab mice.

From this death error, they can brainwash us into putting our trust in doctors and all sorts of so-called experts.  Doctors are nothing more than modern day witches.  People marvel at how many lives they 'save' and conveniently forget how many they lose such is the strength of the brainwashing.  They save no lives at all - only Jah can give or take life.  The way people are fooled by them is no different to falling for the priesthood.  The same people who fall for doctors and modern medicine mock those who attend church and believe what the ministers say.  I don't see a difference!



Its time for all of this bullshit to end.
All these false systems must start falling.  Its time for the natural intelligence of the human being to arise!  Jah reigns supreme.  If you listen to Jah in ALL areas of Life you cannot go wrong.  There is an intelligence in the body which they've kept us from and now we have a world full of messed up, sick people who are like children, relying on experts of this and that for how to live.

Where do you think these people get their knowledge from?  They were once a baby like you!  Why do you believe they know more about you than you do?  Its absurd.  Some of us have come in these times to deliver this message.  We are the ones who can remember what its like to live without all of this suppression.  I am from the future and the past.  I am from another planet.  I am a Rasta!

The SoulJahm Voice is only going to get louder from here.  Jah Live!


  

7 Up!

The day Kate and I left Berlin in January 2011 we spotted some graffiti saying "I love you 7Up".  We immediately recognised it as a sign on the journey.  The night before we had both felt incredible energy and love come through us for Berlin as we lay in bed.  I went into one of my states where insights and information is 'downloaded'.  What came strongly was that we would return to Berlin one day and the Music would really begin to take off, as if Berlin was being recognised as one of the major centres of this Music.  I wrote about this on the "Spitting Out The Shit" blog at the time.

While in Budapest this year, in an apartment where Kate's parents were staying, they pointed out to me a lampshade with "7"s engraved in it.  I had already had a few signs to back up the feeling to come to Berlin, including spotting a van just in front of the taxi we were in at the traffic lights with "Berlingo" emblazened on its rear, and a pair of underpants in a shop window on the street of our apartment which had "Einfach Berlin" (Simply Berlin) written on them!  Somehow I knew this time in Berlin was what was being shown back in January 2011 as we left.  (We had returned to Berlin in November 2011 but there was no significance felt then).  So when I was shown the lampshade the first thing that went through my head was "7 Up"!

I returned to the graffiti in June this year to take a photo to use in the video of the song "Definitely Berlin".  On my return was now a rainbow painted on a nearby building.  This was not there in January 2011 or at least it wasn't visible to Kate and I.

The number 7 has been hugely significant throughout my life.  I don't know why.  I lived most of my childhood on the 7th floor of a block of flats.  I was 17 when I experienced the first indications of some sort of awakening, and this was also the age when I received my first guitar and Music entered my life.  For years around that time my favourite song was 'Distant Sun' by Crowded House which features the line "when your seven worlds collide".  My first artist name was Seven Worlds in homage to this.

In 2007, when I was 27 and my mother was 47, she died suddenly and quite mysteriously, just at the point where I'd come into contact with spiritual information.  Whatever had happened to me when I was 17 seemed to be a precursor to what was to take place 10 years later when reality as I knew it was turned upside down and the ground pulled from under my feet.  That year Kate and I were forced to move out of our rented flat and into another, which was number 17.

So many apartments we went on to stay in throughout Europe involved a number 7 and the dates 7th, 17th and 27th were often when significant things would happen on this journey.  So for Kate to leave the body 7 years after my mum, aged 34 (3+4=7), which I also am, had a certain inevitability to it.